Structure & Purpose

Oh hai!  Wonderful to see you. How’s Monday treating you?

Me–I’m good, solid good. I’ve spent the majority of my time, lately, with my nose applied directly to the grindstone. This weekend I spent 6 hours carving, 4 drawing, 2 cleaning and at least 4 attending to assorted math and art history assignments. [I also went jogging for the first time since I overtaxed myself after hurting my foot.] Busy-busy! Another thing I’ve been doing is making payments on my new camera. Remember when I got upgraded? Well, I couldn’t afford it all at once so I made $50 payments until I paid the balance. Well, I have a disconnect when it comes to numbers. Somehow they slip away from my mind and I never feel sure when asked to recall them. My slippery brain remembered that it was payment time, but didn’t think to remember whether or not I’d finished. Turns out, I was! I am! I officially own my camera. Sunshine Press made an investment in [her very own] interests, in possibility, in the future. I don’t know about you, but I’m [fucking] thrilled.

I’ve been thinking a lot about structure, spacial and personal, as of late. See, I have a tendency to wander. There’s absolutely always a part of me that will give chase. That will, at very least, make a note of where the exits are. If you pick up what I’m putting down. What I mean is: I have always been one to tell you my wildest truth but not my name OR admit myself and edit accordingly. It is a dangerous thing, the internet. Anyone in the whole wide interworld can see. It’s a choice and I choose to write here  because the structure, the purpose of Sunshine Press is to be a real outlet, a sample, resume, a portfolio, a photomontage and a journal entry all at the same time.

You put your whole heart out there and anything can happen.

No matter how flaky I ever get, I always come back to the Press. Over the years [from DiaryLand, to LiveJournal, to Allpoetry, to MySpace to Facebook to WordPress, no matter what, I come back here to talk it out. And, so, I really appreciate my readership. Thanks for all the comments, the likes, the loves.

I aim to move forward with purpose. Coming up next, you can expect more regulars [Meet:!, Nuptials!] as well as new treats [Portfolio! Playlist!] with greater consistency. I’ve also been pondering things like advertising and other directions the Press can grow. Can’t wait!


❤ Sunshine



Progress Report

This past couple months have spun me right round, baby. Right round like a record, baby, right round. Round. Round. My first semester of school at Shoreline is in full affect. I’m taking English, Math, Music Theory and Keyboard. So far, I’ve dealt with classmates—the fresh out of high school kind—who don’t write well or communicate in a group setting in English; creepy classmates either copying my paper or cracking me up with their stoner anecdotes, and/or generally freaking me out in Math; and in Music Theory and Keyboard I’ve had teachers who either want five bucks to do their job or teachers who confuse me with “a caucasian woman.” It’s been a little fucked up.

These situations would have enlivened oldSunshine. I would have eagerly stepped up to solve these problems. NewSunshine has too much to do. NewSunshine is too busy seeing the beauty in everything.

I’ve been oohing and ahhing at the trees, singing in the rain and working very, very hard. I feel stronger.

And I can tell I’m learning something because I’m better able to articulate musical ideas, which has effectively made my music better. And today, finally, I had the time to work on a few paintings that had been on my easel for a while. Finally, Christine hangs. This series is almost finished and Super Plaid’s first album is almost finished and then—BOOM! It’s on.


Can’t wait.